Happy Birthday to me!!

Well another year has came and went much to my wrinkled dismay :( I did have nice birthday though. We went home shopping and found a real Gem that we are keeping our fingers crossed everyone likes it.

My new thing at this moment is fostering dogs and so far we have had three come in and out of the house in the last week ...I don't if this is really going to last long due to the fact that we keep getting attached to each one and it is very hard to give them up.

We are heading out of town this weekend up to Williams Az out of the heat and into the Pines Yippee!! I ma not really in the mood for blogging currently but will have more to come in the future. I am enclosing some Birthday pictures and pictures of the remaining foster "Pedro"

Love you all ,

Clee~

On a happier note

I love you because you make me happyI love you because you make me feel safe and secureI love your smileI love the way you say my nameI love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love meAnd how you laugh at me when I do something stupid, when others would putme down.I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worryabout what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am. No matter what my faults may be.I love being able to wake up with you by my side... It makes my daysbetterAt night I love watching you sleep, hearing you take each breath, andfeeling your heart beat with the palm of my hand... reality hits that youare not a dream YOU ARE MINE.I love the way you wrap your arms around me and hold me really tight, likethere is no tomorrowAnd I love the way I feel when your lips barely touch mine for a kiss, thelove and emotions that go through me at that moment are unexplainable.I love your laughI love hearing your voiceI love that you get along with my family and friend, no matter how muchyou dislike them, or who they are.And hearing you tell me your stories, you could tell them to me a thousandtimes, and I will never get tired of them, because they are a part of you.But the main reason I love you is because.....You are you!

Ponderings

It seems as if I haven't blogged in quit a while? And I am not really sure what I am writing about today? Life seems strange to me at this point. I am struggling with many emotions with home life and myself personally I think. Please don't think that in anyway I am unhappy for I am not :)
Today is a day of ponderings .Gary and I had a party on Saturday with all of our great friends we all had a fantastic time catching up and just enjoying each others company. But I realize that I am hurting for a friend of mine going through the same thing in her marriage as I did and it breaks my heart for I do love her so much.What does one do or say to not effect your precious friendship? I am at a loss with this
Issue number two is anger how does one get over this and learn to move on when it is effecting everything around you?How about disrespect how do you get over this? Bitterness does this have a cure ? These three things have had a tremendous affect on my life lately . I am disappointed in an issue at home I am disappointed in the court system and I am disappointed in the position I unknowingly have placed my children in .
OK surgery is coming up and today is day two of not smoking so maybe this was all not needed Im not sure ...But thanks for listening

You got something I cant resist :)

I remember the very first day

The first day we met.

The very first day

The very first day I heard your soothing voice. The wonderful feeling in my heart I felt ,so strong ,so beautiful since the first day we met.

The very first day

The very first day you kissed me ,The very first day you wrapped loving arms around me ,So strong and protecting.

The very first time you told me you loved me felt so wonderful to hear those words from you for I felt that I loved you too.

I have loved you from the minute I heard your voice like breathing I had no choice .

I will love you now and for ever and this precious day I will always remember.

Happy One Year Anniversary Mr Mastriana

LA LA LA LA

Morning Ya"ll OK so I think my voice is almost back. With 5 days of pretty much not talking and Gary's back being out I am ready for it .Picture this Gary on couch CLEEEEEAAAAAAA
me in another room silently whatttttt ya not so good for communication in our house Woe is we I tell you .
Plan for the day get everything ready to take to the accountant on Monday somehow I-we need to find $9000.00 in deductions?? Yes babe I'm working on .
Go to doctor and see if I can get released to go back to work '
Go to Gym '
Rent Marley and Me
Get Shelby groomed
That should keep me busy for the rest of the day. OH and no drinking anymore wine apparently it makes throat worse I say Horse Shit but OK your the doctor

Silence is Golden

Well all my Friends I am out of commission for about a week :( Went to the ENT today and have the dreaded Laryngitis which we all know this sultry sexy voice is my bread and butter j/k about the sultry sexy voice :) But i need my voice to do my job and this sucks !!

So I get to sit home for the next week and feel sorry for myself and worry about my students ..I don't like it. Luckily Gary took off today and while be home this weekend to take care of me and let me get some rest and Kayla is at the evil ones this weekend so I should be good.

I know it sounds crazy but I cant stand to miss work I feel like I have no control over what is going on. So dealing with this is a little hard and kinda put me in a depression mode .

I have so much to say and it is all trapped under highlighted curls .

I guess I need to get used to this since I will be out for six weeks this summer for my pelvic reconstructive surgery and then I will really be laid out GISH not looking forward to this .

Well just wanted to boo who and let everyone know what was going and why I Would not me answering my phone . email id gary_n_clee@cox.net if you need to talk to me and you can always give the G-man a call if it is urgent

Take care all love you Lot's

~Clee

Camping and Cupcakes in the pool

Hell my friends! Sorry it has been awhile in the blogging world :) We took a well deserved camping trip with just Gary and I and My best friend Cristine and her Hubby out to Lake Plez we had a great time with great company. We did the usually drink and kick it in the sun Gary took in a little to much Yeager and was feeling kinda "shitty" The first night but we still had a great time and Christine and I git some catching up girl talk taken care of.

Last weekend we drained the pool and what fun it is to be Ten and have a draining pool in your backyard. It started out with girls becoming impatient for the pump and asking if they could start draining it with cups ..lol sure go right ahead WELL that was short lived but they had fun about half way down the girls thought oh how much fin to be able to put our chairs in the pool and sit -only when your ten :) I will include pictures but at the end of the night they thought it would be much more fun to get our swimsuits on in the freezing cold water and eat our cupcakes PRICELESS you go first no you go first Lol.

All in all things were pretty good other than a little testosterone battle going on temporally in the house . I did have some drama myself including having a very very painful and a $7000.00 bridge placed in my mouth I was always told I had a pretty smile but now I can say it is well worth it .

Hope all is well with everyone and miss our lived ones far away take care

Love Gary and Clea

Because I can!

Ok so here is my silly blog for the week. I got my little La La a new outfit and she hates it but I still made her wear it and I wanted to post a picture of it"Because I can" I know that most people are against dressing your dog but I have this weird fixation about it. Maybe it is because Gary and I cant have babies and she is my replacement? Or maybe it is because I don't want any more babies ...OK well maybe sometimes I still get that urge I would have honestly loved to have a child with Gary and I have the name picked out just"Because I can " we all know that it wont happen but I can still play with it or more dog for that matter.

We had a great weekend overall Saturday Gary and I set out to the Sportsman show ugh! Basically a bunch of dear hunting fat beer drinking guys that let there butt cracks hang out and did not wear undershirts! But we had a good time wondering around looking at stuff and collecting all the information on an Alaskan fishing trip that we would really like to partake in the future :) After that we just kinda chilled around town came home made some dinner and watched Changling (good movie BTW)

Today we got up and went to church for a really fantastic service that really touched us.

On the way home we stoped at Petco for cat food and ended buying Ellas new sweater and that is what brings us to this Blog. So there you go my Nonsense

Ta Ta for now heading up to Fresh and Easy to make a great big ole salad with dinner

Loves ~Clea

Whew!!!

What a week is all I have to say! Gary and I are drained. Work school and kids have kept us extremely busy. But I guess I am to blessed to b stressed at this point in my life.

Gary is finishing up his first block in school YA Gary! And I have started a Leadership Development program at work:)

Kids are good We took Kayla to get her hair cut off last weekend and it is super cute ,I will post a picture off her and her BFF.

Dave is trucking along trying to find his purpose in life I think?But the great thing is that Dave and Makayla get along great now.They bicker and smack each other like real brother and sister.

As usual the animals are driving us crazy and our newest addition "La La" is a crazy dog all 4.5 lbs of her run this house.

The weather is getting fantastic and I cant wait for the heat for swimming there is nothing better than coming home from work lighting up the BBQ and swimming with your loved ones and the dog.So our next goal is to get the back yard in order and up to par for everyone to come over for the first pool party of the year(keep you posted)

I guess that is all I have for the blogging world at this time I think I shall retire to the couch and watch Mr Mastriana pretend not to be sleeping and take in a movie or two.

Love to all near and far

Running out of reasons to cry

Hello all well it has been a pretty great month so far. This Sunday was Gary and I third Anniversary and I have to say I have never been happier hence my blog title life has lead us in the direction we are supposed to go and I feel blessed everyday Happy Anniversary My Sweetest Love. We have taken 2 camping trips so far with the new trailer and had adventure both times but all turned out well.

Last weekend we took the whole Family including Makaylas best friend Jaq and our big Lab Kayden so it was kinda packed inside. The girls got to go see snow and David did a Fantastic job of wearing them out on hikes. Gary and I took a little personal time while they went to Flag and visited some wineries and a Fish hatchery all pretty cool stuff.

This weekend was for relaxation only I think I slept 15 hours on Saturday and I NEVER do that so I think everything caught up with us.I did have to work on my finals on Sunday (Thanks Jason) and I started my last class of my degree program WHEW!

Work is work some minor drama going on but it is really nothing other than one person trying to bring everyone down and we are to strong for that.I will be starting some leadership traning for the next couple of months to ease me into Manager in Traning who would have thunk this 4 years ago. I tell my life has gone nowhere but up .

I am posting some pictures of camping for those far away from us but still near to our hearts.

Agenda for the rest of the day finish homework laundry and dye my Grays!

Hope everyone had a great weekend Hugs and Kisses

Gary and Clea

Sunday Night

Here I sit Sunday Night not ready to go back to work AT ALL . We had a very productive weekend . House cleaning Homework . The girls and I went and got our nails did today ...pretty

Sad thing is that I failed once again as a Mexican! Gary and took a $100 trip to Ranch Market because I was hell bent on making him Menudo! Well we ended up buying everything under the sun there . So home we went to take this Menudo trip. First I call my dad the King of Mexican food and his recipe is way off than mine so I mix them both ! I mean right it should be great? NO it was not I tasted like POO...That made me sad and of course Gary was a good sport about it when I made up with Carna Asada Burritos . He is always so great about when I mess things up cooking :)

I was kinda sad after Makayla told me she wanted me to wait another year to go to court for custody and I know it all comes down to her being affraid of her Dads reaction ..I am sorry a child should never be put in that position !!
So after some wine and tears I am in a better place with it today and let her know that when she is ready I will fight for her .

So we are making our first trailer camping trip in two weeks and I cant wait !! I am so excited .

Well to all G'nite Hugs and Kisses

Week Katchup

What else would one do when Mr. Mastriana is watching "The Game"along with the rest of the world but blog about nonsense right?

So far the weekend has been great! As I wrote we went to the movies Friday ALL BY OURSELVES and I have to say it was a great movie funny emotional and sad .

Saturday we woke up and did the usual Starbucks and Yard sales :) Then ventured down to the Home and Garden show we spent about 6 hours walking around whew! But got some pretty cool stuff . We got the Sham WOW pretty much $20 shop towels . Then we came across what I thought was the greatest invention EVER ...see above It is this thingy that you rub in circular motions on your legs Wax on Wax of and BlAm it removes the hair therefore eliminating the need for shaving ...Cool right well um not so much you see it is about 700 grit sand paper that you don't really feel as you wax on wax off and now the back of my thigh is RaW and really hurts to sit on and I also have stubble today I am very disappointed :(

We did get a very cool sign for our pool that made Mr. Mastrina almost Pee himself laughing when he saw it ..Thank God for the Sham Wow ! never the less we had a great day and spent some well deserved time together .

Work is getting back to normal with my new boss Jenny even though I still miss Tisha as my lead she still helps when I need it and Jenny is really into teaching you new stuff . She is intending on nominating my for the Manager in Training this year and I think I am up for the challenge :)

I am throwing in some useless pictures one is my little LaLa and her new Raincoat a must for Arizona right? My 2do's for the day are Laundry Homework and to recover Ms. Makayla's Headboard .

OK I was almost done but remembered a talk Gary and I had after church today while driving home and it was about life change and why we love each other he described all the things he loved about me and how we put all the priorities in life in line the right way and it just seems to work out somehow and how happy both of us are at the directions our life is now going in . I really would suggest to remember to let your loved one every once in a while what you love about that and why :) I think we all need to hear that sometimes and not just take it for granted that the other one knows .

With that said off to my chores ..Peace Out my friends

MOvie NiGhiT

OHhhhhhh I am so excited Gary and I get to go on a date tonight which has been wat to long! With buying the new Trailer and Truck then X-mas and kids we have had much extra. So a friend hooked us up with tickets and we are going to see Gran Torino I am a huge Eastwood fan so it should be great ,

Then maybe dinner by then I will be so tired Mr Mastriana will take me by the hand and put me to bed. True Love does still happen .
I think we are going to the Home and Garden Show Saturday and just chillen on Sunday watching THE game !
Maybe if I get to bored I will blog tomorrow and post new pictures . Everyone have a great night

May the New Year come with all that the life has in

2009 I have great expectations for this year! First I want to reflect on last year a little, As many of you know Gary closed his company 3 weeks after we got married. But was able to get a new job as Project Manager for Honeywell this move alone has taken so much stress off our relationship. We now carpool everyday to work get a regular paycheck and work is done at 5:00pm :) No don't get me wrong we are still trying to play catch up on bills with loss of the company but it is worth every bit of sacrifice.
Makayla has continued to get so beautiful and mature this year it is amazing and she is no longer plotting Gary's death in his sleep ..lol . She is expressing more and more her desire to come and live with us so we will be diligently working on that this year I really think at the age she needs her mother more and more.
James is still very standoffish towards me nut all I can do is be patient.
David has clanged
so much since moving in with us I think it is great he works hard and goes to school and has even become so much more patient with his little sister ..whew...

My job at UOP is still going well and I did receive a couple of promotions but have found out that my beloved boss is moving to a different team and that is very hard to deal with still .

This year will be great I can feel lots of camping trips swimming and family time :)
So to sum this up here are Gary and Cleas resolutions for 2009

Clea -
1.Stop Smoking I know I always say this but I really really need to !
2.Loose weight I have found out I may have a tumor that is causing weight gain but I need to be proactive at this point and try to loose it myself
3. Practice forgiveness -Life is to short to live in the past
4. Love More -enough said

Gary
1. Quit smoking
2.Loose weight
3. Get healthy enough to get off all medications and get diabetes under control . To be able to spend the rest of my life with the woman I have waited my whole life for .
Please feel free to share any of your resolutions with me and maybe we can work on them together